there is a 16 year old girl trying to inspire me right now

and it's working like I'm tearing up[
I have drunk so much rum tonight you fuckers
and that son of a bitch is still sitting in the corner waiting
I can't fight him okay I jsut can't he's just ogint to oout wait-me he's just goint ot wait
alex was right he's not going t og oaway no mater how much I drink
what do I do what do I do wjhat do I do
I'm so fucking scared and I can't take my eyse off him unless he moves he moves behind my eyes

horrible just horrible
I almost wish I were cutting again jesus

here ok here

said I'd post said I'd post said i'd post said i'd post
someone's doing coke in the bathroom
or no wait I'm imagining it it's 2 am no way and I'm not at a party I' in my own house
all alone

all alone

wjen did this stop beinga joke

fuck

FUCK
FUCK

FUCK



FUCK


JUST
NEVRMIND
JUST FUCK EVERYTHING
I HATE THIS SHIT
i hate this shit

goddammit Alex

Alex is all trying to be coherent what is zie trying to prove

whatever bitch/basterd/whatever. I can hold my own just watch me. Fucking sobering up by force of will righttttttt.....NOW.

That tall fucker is still here. Worst party crasher I swear. But he's more than that I think. Scares Alex bad. I dunno maybe because he only shows up when I'm drunk but I am not scared of him. Alex is fucking around idek what zie's doing. Zie's saying something about fields. Magnetic fields? Zie fucking lovves that band and with good reason but i dunno if that's what zie's talking about right now.
fuck I have the spins. HEY let's finish this sixpack. or get into awkward emotional confessions now becaus god dammit i am scared. of the guy yes. but because of other things too. but mostly the tall guy. Please don't look at me with that faceless face anymore I can't handle it
don't LOOK AT ME
GET AWAY fuck oh fuck get away from alex get away from hir please oh please just leave us alone if I keep on drinking will you leave us alone

oh hey another bottle yes

ANYWAY WHATEVER

FUCK THAT FOOL i coulda drunk him under the table but uh I didn't. So you know whateves because um fuck that guy
Goddamn I am coughing like crazy this is bullshit. Some fucking dude is making me cough, or wait that doesn't make sense fuck
whahahaha my friend "I have family issues too, theyre about....CHOCOLATE"
I love drinking good grief
wtf is with this skinny dude he's freaking me out dude fuck off get away from me for reals your suit is so shitty and like, unfashionable

Ohay

Okays so I'm totally sober now. Okay so I'm J, no wait I was already writing about that. I really want to talk about how I was kitting on this chick and she was totally going for it and then her like frat bro boyfriend came up and was like I'm going to leave now and the bastard punched me in the face and shit

I'm just all bloody nosed and stuff. Bastard, bet he has a tiny dick.

so yeah, apart ddrom that I've ogt finals and stuff with finals and shit and just busy buys bys but enough time to drink ig uess. :D ::D

Begin!

Hay gaiz my name's J (lol common name) and I ain't sayin whether I'm a boy or a girl. I'm not sure what's going on outside my window right now but it sounds like someone's puking which is weird. Seriously, I've got my headphones on but someone's like, "RUAAAACH" outside my window and I think someone's hurling in my driveway which is SICK and I am MAD about it.

ANYWAY

How you doing, Internet? where you at bro? Everyewhere you say? Yeah I know how that is.

This is a short post and I gotta get back to studying for my finals. Later, the internet! You love me right? Yeahhhhh you totally love me.